May I cry? T.T

I wanted to vent about myself. Somehow I feel that I like as alien in the crowd. Somehow I feel in exile in a crowd in an organization. Yet as much as possible I fused with them, but whenever possible I adapt to all their properties. BUT .... it's useless. I still feel strange, feel in exile ya feel distinguished. Either I'm just feeling alone or indeed the way it is. Because I have a "jutek" face? why they seemed to exile me? What I wrong? Okay, I accept that many say when they see my impression of it jutek and bitchy. Don't judge me from the outside!! And I hate when already in a position like this, in my position in exile. I won't tell you about name anyone. The important thing is I just they want to know if I'm friendly and I'm not like as bad as they think. What I resign? but I don't know how to make them closer together. Yahhhhh..whatever. this is my self and just the way I am.